FINALLY

Yes I think I finally feel it now
In the way he moves
Smiles, Caresses, Speaks and soothes.
My body smiles when I see him
Melts when I’m hear him
And moistens when I’m near him
Yeah I think I finally feel it
This man strokes my ego and rubs my pride
He loves me from the inside out
And never leaves my side
He makes me laugh
He makes me whole
He makes me tingle
He’s a part of my soul
He has my strength when I fall weak
He kisses the pain away
And knows the pleasure I seek
Now I’m not talking sex
Cause if I was, surely I would blush
I’m talking the house on the hill, three car garage
And love built on trust
I’m saying I wanna bear his seeds
And plant a future with him that only time exceeds
Wanna feed him the kind of love
That makes him oblivious to those hoes around him
Wanna caress his mind as well as his…..reality
Wanna be his everything
So yes
I think I finally feel it
What I’ve waited on for so long
I finally feel the nerve
To write a sweet ass love song

Mind Games

Let down
A little
Trippin’
I guess
Can’t seem to understand
Why me?
Why can’t I just have the happy existence that I need
Just love me
Is that too much to ask?
Just let it be
Is that too tough a job?
I don’t ask for much
And when I do ask it’s minor
I give and I give and I give
Now what?
Now you wanna change me
The very core of me
The broken bird that I am
You wanna see me fly
Keep pushing
And I will fly away
Because this psych trip
It’s a game
I’m too old for that
Are you runnin game?
Cause I’m too old for that too
Yet I fall for it every time
It stops here
Keep it real
Or keep it

I think to myself

Say man, are you for real man? can you feel the same thing man? I know I'm sick and tired of being lonely. I want to make you my one and only. The only obstacle that arises is. The fact that we would have to merge our kids. I know that we could make it through this phase love. But can you stand the rain it brings love? I want to wear your name like royalty. Have you become the biggest part of me. I'm sick and tired of playing childish games. I'm thinking you will be my everything.

Now we come to a new chapter. I'm digging the happy ever after. My eyes burn with admiration for you. Like Mo said "You make me feel brand new" Now heres the noble part of all this mess. You not forcing me to get undressed. I've only known your name for two days. But the impression you've left makes my soul say, that I think that I can handle it. I think I want to write an epic poem about it. You and me flying on this tailspin, and blowing everything into the wind.

but my cautious side comes over me. Won't rush into it until we see. if we really want to take it there. I truly believe that our lives we were bound to share. Now I don't believe in love at first glance. but you're the cause of me taking this chance. By some divine form of intervention. You arrived to lavish me with attention. I do believe in soul mates. Never thought that I could take the wait. But when one door closes a window opens. I vow to God that I will never abuse this token. Now what if we happened to meet by chance? would it still be under this circumstance? Cause see we've known each other for a while. but never spoke, only a wave and smile. I think we just weren't ready then. somehow we would have just ended up being friends. but my instincts whiper this to me. A future we may share endlessly. Just step out on faith man. Just a little, come on I know you can man. For now I am going to end this thing here. Until the picture gets a little clearer.

ooooooh I feel fine!

I haven't felt this kind of electricity and fire in a long time! How one simple meeting feels like it could turn my life upside down. I smile just thinking about the endless conversations ahead. I twinge thinking this just can't be real! Is it too good to be true. I feel that my brick wall may come tumbling down faster than London bridges or jack when he broke his crown. Whew guys, feels like an earthquake has stopped me dead still. uuuum the sweet sounds of simplicity in the air, I have been praying for this for a while. Now that it's here, will I, can I stand it?

Have you ever seen something as beautiful as this moment?
How you can reach out for the stars and bring back the moon? Have you dreamed something as lovely or tasted something as pure? Just imagine the pleasure of it all as we embark on a journey that never begins and never ends. Just relax and let it flow through your mind as we stare into the beauty of it all.

A Song for the Deaf

"Can miles truly separate you from friends... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? " Richard Bach



Little does he know that the very thought of him takes me to the highest
That I love his knowledge and strength
That the frustration I feel when I am around him
is the beat of my emotions trying to escape the depths of my soul
so that I could just have enough courage to kiss the pain away
Little does he know the impact on my journey that has been made
and that I sing an ancient song for the years that we’ve lost
not knowing one another
The future is in my eyes but I am way too afraid for him to look at me
For I fear that he will see the real me, the insecure,
afraid to try new things
Afraid to change me
The cruelest part of everything is that he is light years away from the warmth of my flesh
So I find myself alone in a world of unjust
calling out to a deaf soul mate
wishing that he knew
A little

One Song That Sticks Out in My Mind

I must have rehearsed my lines a thousand times,Until I had them memorized.But when I get up the nerve to tell you,the words that never seem to come out right. ohhIf only you knew how much I do,do love you, oh. If only you knew,how much I do, do need you.I dream of moments we share, but your not there,I'm living in a fantasy.but you don't even suspect,could probably care less,about the changes I been going through.No, you don't even suspect,Could probably care less,about the changes I been going through.

If only you knew how much I do,do love you, oh. If only you knew,how much I do, do need you.

Courtesy of Ms. Patti Label (Sing on Ms. Patti, sing on!)

Rambles

I never thought I would ever come to this point in my life. Sure I have been at the jump off point, but I never actually thought about leaping into the unknown. It terrifies me to think that I will never achieve the life that I have always dreamed of, or have the love that I've always craved. Have you ever felt like you wanted to fly, but that big peice of cement hanging from your heel just won't let you go? Have you wanted to soar high above the realms of reality and taste the gift of life as it meets you in a sweet embrace? Sometimes I feel like I am floating in a limbo between fantasy and reality and I almost always lean towards the fantasies of life. Look at me rambling on and on about my obscure thoughts when you have things to do. I bid you good day and happy trails.

If I

If I'd known it was you
That I've waited for all this time
I would have jumped by now
or cried and hid my head
If I'd know the compromises I'd make
or the sacrifices I shouldn't
I would have tucked my tail away
If I'd only seen the perplexities at hand
I would have cut off my right for my left
If I'd known it was you
That I've loved all my life
I wouldn't have led this life
at all


Danielle Mead

Nobody Knows

And nobody knows it but me
How scared, frustrated, tired, anxious, terrified, exhausted, sad, happy
How confused, depressed, elated, alone, comforted, uncomfortable
How I can turn one simple gesture into a dream
One dream into a nightmare
One nightmare into an eternal damnation
Nobody knows how troubled, how hopeless, how hopeful
How much I want to implode from the weight of it
How much I want to vomit from the stench of it
Cry from the joy of it
Cry from the sorrow
Everybody seem to want to know the feel of it
The warmth, the coldness, the heat of my
Anger
The sweet relief of my trouble
And nobody knows it but me

Danielle Mead

8/11/04