If I

If I'd known it was you
That I've waited for all this time
I would have jumped by now
or cried and hid my head
If I'd know the compromises I'd make
or the sacrifices I shouldn't
I would have tucked my tail away
If I'd only seen the perplexities at hand
I would have cut off my right for my left
If I'd known it was you
That I've loved all my life
I wouldn't have led this life
at all


Danielle Mead

Nobody Knows

And nobody knows it but me
How scared, frustrated, tired, anxious, terrified, exhausted, sad, happy
How confused, depressed, elated, alone, comforted, uncomfortable
How I can turn one simple gesture into a dream
One dream into a nightmare
One nightmare into an eternal damnation
Nobody knows how troubled, how hopeless, how hopeful
How much I want to implode from the weight of it
How much I want to vomit from the stench of it
Cry from the joy of it
Cry from the sorrow
Everybody seem to want to know the feel of it
The warmth, the coldness, the heat of my
Anger
The sweet relief of my trouble
And nobody knows it but me

Danielle Mead

8/11/04